That's a little more like it

It's weird how your perspective can change within a week.

Aside from my little meltdown in my last post, things have started to feel like their on the up-swing. I've been getting responses for this weeks event. I've got one of the moms making a snack for tonight. I actually finished my lesson for tonight yesterday, (The goal is to be three weeks ahead of the game, but that will come.) I'm starting to feel like I'm connecting with some of the students. It's really been an encouraging week.

I think that one of the most amazing things that's happened so far was last week. This episode was partially why I was freaking out so much.

Last Tuesday morning, while I was in a staff meeting, I got a phone call from Nic. She was very upset because we had received our very first phone and internet bill since coming to Saskatoon. It was a final notice (I'm not sure what happened the first, second and third notices because we never got them) and it was asking for an amount of money that there was no way we would be able to afford. It was so much in fact that if we were to pay it, we would not have had money for food or our other utilities. Naturally, my first reaction was to sink into despair. 

The rest of the day was a flurry of activity. Some of the stuff was good, like having the senior pastor offer to help us out and Nic getting called to work for the first time since we moved here. Some of it wasn't so good, like having to plan games for a group of students when my heart wasn't in it.

That night, as the students were starting to show up to the church, there was a group of seniors gathered below us for a prayer meeting. One of the ladies from the group came into the youth room as I was wrapping up the leaders meeting and asked to talk to me. On a day like that one, I wasn't ready to consider the possibility that this would be a positive talk. At the time, all I could think was, "Great, now what have we done..."

As it turns out, she just wanted to tell me that her group had just finished up with a potluck and had some leftovers that they wanted to send home with us. They left us four days worth of food... She also informed me that her group had decided to make Nic and I their special project this year. She said that they'd be praying for us and then proceeded to hand me an envolope. They had taken a collection for us.

Turns out, the ammount they gave us was just a little more than the bill we had received that morning.

Like I said, I've been feeling very affirmed around here recently. God has a funny way of working in my life. The pattern has been that he'll take away any control that I have over a situation and make it so that they only way that we'll survive is to trust that he's going to do something miraculous. He's been doing that for us ever since we got married, and it's made me realize that I can trust him for more than our money. 

I think that's why things are starting to work now.